and feeling like I’m ready?! (Or at least as ready as I’ll ever be.)
It’s weird because as much as I love being pregnant- even with the second pregnancy, which for me has hit faster and made me slower- every time I feel her kick, I just think “I want you to be here already.” Waiting is hard! I’m just so excited for Liv to meet her and spend time as a family. At the same time, there is still a TON to do before she makes her arrival -the nursery currently looks like an episode of Hoarders– and of course, I want her to be fully cooked before she makes her debut. 😉
Some of the things I’ve noticed from the past couple of weeks:
Remember when I said that no one has offended me so far? Well I was putting it out there to the universe, because I was bombarded last week with weird/rude comments. These included comments from people at the gym (you’re huge! are there twins in there? i’m going to put a mat under you in case your water breaks) and comments from EVERYONE we encountered on our road trip to Tucson. We always take Liv to Chuck E Cheese on the way (bribery to be patient in the car at its best haha), and the girl at the counter was like, ‘Wow, you’re going to have that baby at any second, huh?” and then at the gas station, the guy working was like, “You’re ready to have that baby!” Are you my doctor, sir? I also happened to be wearing a snug grey t-shirt dress, which I decided to immediately burn. You’re dead to me, dress.
At the same time, I’ve also gotten some really kind and lovely comments, which I choose to focus on. Most of them have to do with taking classes and sticking with my routine while pregnant, and it’s always appreciated and makes my heart so warm. I remember when I was in college, there was a VERY pregnant woman in my favorite spin class each week. She killed it, and I thought to myself, “I hope I can do that one day.” I told her she inspired me for the future. 🙂
I’ve had some crazyass dreams, as in even more bizarre than usual. Last week, I had a dream that my water broke and I was only 30 weeks. Tom was out of town for work, and I had to drop Liv off at a friend’s and drive myself to the hospital. My doula went to the hospital, but couldn’t find me. Also, random family members were there but they all had dinner plans so they couldn’t help me? Labor and delivery was closed, so they took me to the normal Emergency Room, where a nurse told me to wait on a table.. like a regular table that had bags of chips underneath it. I wasn’t having any contractions, and was so worried because my water had already been broken for hours and no doctors or anyone was to be seen. It was one of those dreams that made me feel so uneasy and anxious when I woke up. When I opened my eyes, Liv was curled up next to me and I could feel the baby kicking in my belly. I instantly felt better. I think I’m just having anxiety that I’ll go into labor while Tom’s not here. I have a lot of friends who have had babies on their own -or their husbands made it back juuuust in time- and they were all totally fine, so it gives me hope.
I’ve once again become obsessed with reading birth stories. I love all of the ones in Ina May’s Guide to Childbirth and re-reading my blog friends’ birth stories. I had to take a break during Julie’s to avoid the dinosaur sob.
Gamble of the day: whether my wedding ring is going to fit. If I’ve had a lot of sodium or it’s been particularly warm, all bets are off. I remember my rings becoming too snug way earlier last pregnancy, so I’m happy I’ve been able to wear them this long.
Belly button status: outie and proud-y. It’s poking out a little bit.
SOFT PRETZELS. Thank you to those of you who told me they have some gluten-free soft pretzels in the freezer section at Whole Foods. You know where Liv and I are heading later today.
Pizza. All day, every day.
Chocolate coconut water.
Making dinner. I’ve made 2 real dinners this week and am already calling it a win.
Bell peppers. I can eat them, but I’m not loving them right now.
Is still going well for now, and it feels SO good to move. I’m doing PiYo with a group of girls on Facebook -hit me up if you want to join our next challenge!- and having a blast with something new, along with some easy modifications. I’m only teaching barre right now -I miss spin and BODYPUMP but it’s too hot and they were getting uncomfortable to teach- and it still feels great. It’s funny because last pregnancy I was a cardio queen because strength training didn’t feel quite right; this time I’m all about strength. I’ve been using the TRX, dumbbells and the kettlebell, in addition to taking BODYPUMP and barre classes. Cardio-wise, my hip flexor and round ligament pain has been better (thank you to my awesome chiropractor and maternity support belt), so I’ve been able to walk on the treadmill and take the pups for daily walks around the neighborhood. I also like to do modified Insanity or Turbofire workouts when I want a little cardio.
Looking forward to:
-Having our doula come over for our pre-labor visit. She is so warm and wonderful, and I’m excited for Tom to meet her. Even though I have no clue how labor will go, I feel more comfortable venturing into it with them by my side.
–Our echocardiogram. I said this last time, but it’s something that’s on my mind through out the day and I really want to learn more about our situation and the steps from here.
-Finishing up the nursery. I had been planning and figuring out everything, and finally ordered all of the goods night last. I’m doing one small DIY and will definitely post a pic when it’s finished.
Keep growing, little lady! We can’t wait to meet you.