May 9: First kinda Mother’s Day

Yesterday was Mother’s Day. It was definitely weird to know that I have this little tadpole growing inside of me, and it still quite feel like this is happening. I suppose it won’t for a while?

So I went through Mother’s Day, desperately wanting to call my stepmom or tell my nana, but I really, really want to wait a while (at least until I hear a heartbeat) to spill the beans. The only family member who knows is my mom, because I knew I’d need her if something happened. She’s been wonderful about it, even though I know it’s been hard for her not to tell anyone.

We spent the day celebrating all of the beautiful, strong, inspirational women in my life, and it made me feel so blessed to think that it’s very likely that I’ll be the next one to start our own little family.

When I got home from dinner at my madre’s, she texted me saying “You have some cards in your purse.”

My mom is great at cards. She will make you cry in a Groundhog’s Day card- everything she writes is so thoughtful, from the heart, and tugs at every emotion in your soul. There were 3 cards in my purse waiting to be opened.

Knowing what was coming, I made some tea, had a seat on the floor with my cards, grabbed a box of tissue and got ready to read them.

The first one was from my mom, thanking me for making her a mother. She told me how proud she was of me, and that I was her “first” everything in motherhood- teeth, smiles, talking, walking, giggles. She said that she wished me all of the joy and fulfillment she’s had out of motherhood. I was a crying mess by the time I opened card number two.

The second card had a picture of a baby’s two little feet, and read “Soon these ten tiny toes will tiptoe into your heart.. and leave their footprints forever.” It was signed “From the family that doesn’t know yet.”

The third card is what brought me over the edge from crying mess, to hysterical and bawling. It was from the baby.

1. Yes, Hallmark makes cards to new moms from the unborn child

2. Here’s what the card said:

“Hi, Mommy! Even though I haven’t been born yet, I wanted to tell you that I can hardly wait to see you and play with you. But in the meantime, just know that I already love you and know you’ll make a really great mom. Love, ?”

I’m crying as I type this. She signed the card “From Baby-sita-o, I love you!”

My text back to my mom: They’re perfect. I’m bawling. I love you.

Her response: Stop bawling and feel the love. Gnite, Love you too”

I’m very lucky.