I don’t want the Family page to come off as me being a paranoid worrywart. Yep, I worry sometimes and the many “what-ifs” cross my mind, but 99% of the time I’m focused on being present and totally happy in this moment, instead of worried about the future. I definitely like to post some of my concerns on here because it’s my TMI-talk-about-everything page, and I really appreciate all of the advice and suggestions you’ve been able to give me, especially so many of you have been around the block before 🙂
Even though I’ve blogged about not being sure how to take care of the baby (and even though I’ve read a ton of books, I won’t know what works for our little family until she’s here), what types of things to register for, blah blah, there’s a deeper worry that I’ve had on my mind. Since I’ve had dreams about it for the past couple of nights, I figured I’d go ahead and blog about it.
I’m worried about breastfeeding.
Breastfeeding is a personal choice, and many women choose not to, which is awesome, but it’s something that I’d certainly like to do if my body will enable me to.
However, with the surgery I had on my right breast, I’m wondering if it will make things more difficult.
Here’s the back story, which I’ve touched on briefly on the blog before:
[It’s kind of graphic in one part, so please skip this family post if you’re sensitive to that kind of thing]
About 7 years ago, they found a tumor in my right breast. Of course no one will know what caused it, but it was in debilitating pain throughout the night and eventually started bleeding along with the pain.
After a series of testing, specialists determined that I had a tumor the size of a grape in one of my ducts and that it would have to be removed. Of course, the doctors went over every possible scenario and the fact that it could be cancerous. It was a scary time for me, and all I could do was be positive and pray that things would be ok.
I had a fantastic surgeon (a woman from India, who came over and sweetly held my hand as the anesthesia started to kick in. The last thing I remember before the surgery is the fact that she was holding my hand), and she removed the tumor without damaging all of the ducts. The best news is that it was benign and they got all of it. I’m very thankful <3
At the time, the idea of breastfeeding never crossed my mind, since I still didn’t know when or how I would have children. [Throughout college, I really wanted to adopt more than anything.. an idea we still might explore in the future] But now that our little girl is on the way, I can’t help but wonder if my surgery will affect my ability to breastfeed. I know that for some women it’s no problem, and for others, it’s a challenge or not possible to breastfeed. My mom said that she never had a problem with it, but she also [thankfully] didn’t have anything affect her duct system.
Anyone who may have been in a similar situation with something that may have affected their ability to breastfeed? Is it possible to get enough out of one side if my right side doesn’t work? Any general breastfeeding advice or lessons learned?